Hey all,

It’s great to be back, did you miss me? Aww, you probably didn’t even notice I’d gone anywhere! Haha.

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Where I’ve been & what I’ve been Upto

The past few months have been pretty hellish to say the least, homeless, home-schooling, living with the mother, and to top it off, the company I was working with went into Administration! So yea, the past few months have been more on the down than upside.

The good news is, were all getting back on track… woohoo!

I managed to finally get my boy into a decent school and he’s settled in really well (and im glad, because home-schooling was horrendous). He loves that they go swimming every week as the school he’s at have their own pool… wish I’d of had a swimming pool in my primary school. 😕

I managed to bag my first school of choice (I should add I didn’t put any other choices…oops!) for my daughter, she will start in her reception class in September and I’m really excited and a bit apprehensive about this!

My younger two daughters are only 11 months apart in age and are pretty much like twins, they are in the same class at nursery and they do everything together, don’t get me wrong they also fight like cat and dog but they are still best buddies at the end of the day!

Maybe I’m just being daft but I worry that my youngest daughter won’t be happy without her there.

The most exciting news for me in this post is… We have a house *Yeyha* – well almost anyways, it’s getting fixed up – but I will finally have all my belongings back, won’t have to live out of bags anymore (with the 2/3 sets of clothes I have here) or sleep on floors and sofas and will have our own bloody space again!

I’m soooo looking forward to getting out of here it’s unreal, seriously!

There was me thinking a few days we’d be here but no… THREE freaking months, so far!

THE worst 3 months of our lives (ok that’s a slight exaggeration as you’ve probably never met my ex haha) but at this moment in time it’s what it feels like.

Me and the kids are really looking forward to the move and getting everything how we want it, it really is exciting times!

Where I’m going from here

As my plans, goals and life pretty much have been on hold for the past few months I’ve decided NOW is the right time to get the ball rolling!

I’ve wasted time being miserable, feeling sorry for myself and just generally put myself in a funk for all my time here – obviously I blame other people and my situation because that’s what normal people do – we don’t like to take the responsibility of it all, or is that just me?

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Anyhow, I’m happy to be back on the blog and glad to be back with you lovely people, ive missed you! 😘

My intentions firstly will be to get back to my goals I set myself at the beginning of the year – except with a different time scale for those obviously.

I’ve had a few companies contact me for collaborations while I’ve been gone and it really got me, with my lack of content and my disappearing act, that people still wanted to work with me and this made me really happy and I’ve just wanted to get back on it. I’ve left opportunities hanging, missed out on people & companies to work with and all because I had my head up my arse (and my computer in storage)!

I’ve still had people viewing my blog, commenting on my posts etc and it all gives me the motivation to get back to business, so thank you to everyone who kept up with me (even when there wasn’t anything to keep up with) it means the world to me.

I’ve tried to keep up with Social Media and fellow bloggers post but to be honest, my heart just hasn’t been in it so i’ve not left the comments i’ve wanted to or interacted with people as I should have either. Sorry!

From now on though, I solemnly swear not to leave my blog hanging and leave all my lovely followers with nothing to follow! 😀

But for now, I will have to love you and leave you, I have a teething 10 month old and a weeks worth of sleep to catch up on!

Until next time,

Much Love

Laura xx

 

*Photo Credit: Pixaby

Emotional Abuse: The scars you can’t see are the hardest to heal. 

 

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Unlike physical violence, the thing with emotional abuse is that you don’t always see it as it is usually until it’s too late, because, by the time you notice it for what it is, your usually in too deep.

You’ve already sunk into a depression and you are riddled with anxiety. You are usually left feeling lonely because over time you’ve neglected and lost (or so it seems) your relationships with friends and family through no fault of your own.

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Some of the signs (but not limited to) of Emotional Abuse are:

  • Isolation from friends and family 
  • Calls you “too sensitive” when you respond to abusive comments
  • Humiliates you, either alone or in front of others
  • *Gaslights you to make you doubt your sanity 
  • Lacks respect for you and points out your mistakes
  • Blames you for his problems
  • Tries to control you and your behaviour
  • Belittles you 
  • Has (extra-marital) affairs and becomes emotionally distant
  • Tells you your a bad parent or threatens to take away your children
  • Destroys your property or threatens to kill your pets
  • Not allowing you out alone, constant checking up or following you
  • Traps you in a room and doesn’t let you out
  • Makes all the decisions
  • Makes false allegations or endlessly making accusations

Emotional Abuse

Unlike domestic violence, there aren’t any external signs or damage to be viewed, that would give you and everyone else too much evidence that you were in an abusive relationship.

Emotional abusers enjoy the torment and will torture you from the inside, they get inside your head and heart and like to see you being destroyed by reducing your self-esteem and confidence and doubting yourself in order to make you increasingly reliant on them. It also makes it easier to manipulate you and convince the outside world that you are crazy, unstable or jealous.

**Many survivors of Emotional Abuse in relationships state that the impact of the abuse is worse than any physical violence they experienced, however, it was much more difficult to prove, to obtain protection, or even to get others to take them seriously.

*What is Gaslighting?

Gaslighting is a form of Emotional Abuse in which an abuser attempts to make you doubt your own recall or perception.

If you believe yourself to be in an abusive relationship please seek help as soon as possible. There are some helplines listed below if you’d like advice please don’t hesitate to contact them either on their website or free phone numbers:

 

Www.victimsupport.org.uk – 08081689111

Www.womensaid.org.uk – 08082000247

Www.lwa.org.uk – 03003650112

 

Don’t suffer in silence.

Much Love

Laura xx

 

 

**statement from the lwa website.

All views in this post are my own (unless otherwise stated), and this post is not endorsed by the above organisations.